Story time? (TW suicide)
Every once in a while, my therapist lets me behind the curtain and into his real life. One session he told me about one of his friends who died by suicide, and how much chaos that brought in his life. And sometimes I don’t think about it. The chaos that would come to everyone’s life if I killed myself. I only think about the fact that everything would stop and how the feelings would stop and that’s just so not true. The feelings just shift to someone else.
So then I think about living. How the concept of living, by far, beats the chaos of dying. How the idea of staying another day will not only be better for me, but for literally everyone around me. Because no matter how you feel, your life does matter to so many people. And you will be so missed if you left. So I just hope that you remember that the next time your mind gets too dark. And you stay a little bit longer. 🖤 // abc
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Feeling inspired today so I’m sharing the love 😍❤️
Last feature: won a major film festival.
Last short: by 2019 Hollywood standards, became a studio film.
First pilot I’ve written? We’ll see what the future holds.
#writersofinstagram #filmmakers… https://www.instagram.com/p/B6G8PwTJMeA/?igshid=1vgtze0hcflmu …
He was a clever man.
Passing his time with her.
Brown coloured eyes, iPhone in his hand
Messaging her away!
Getting her Hope's up,
Keeping her in a lie that they will be together one day.
But that day never came and this woman was mentally tortured again.
She did not learn from her past mistakes so did she get what she deserved?
Wait, love, time and the physical world is rubbish.
Today I finished with one
(A New Earth) and I am starting the next one
(Welcoming the Unwelcome).
Turning off my Xfinity subscription a few years ago and plugging into the library and taking “some” of the money I saved to buy the books I wanted to own and have I my library to lend out has been a life and a game changer.
Reading forces / allows me to be Present in each moment; in each word.
When I Am true to the process the opportunity to learn, grow, shift, “choose to choose differently” is immediate; in that moment.
The Holy Instant (Gabby Bernstein)
The Journey Now is a “Master’s Program” in Awakening and the companionship of Pema Chödrön, Eckhart Tolle, Paulo Coelho, Marianne Williamson, Gabby Bernstein, Dr. Brian Weiss, Carl Jung, Joseph Campbell, Victor Frankl, The Stoics, Rumi.....
I so so deeply appreciate and I Am so Grateful for their counsel.
My library is at your disposal.
My reading list is available anytime.
If you want a recommendation or a summary (if I’ve read it) I’m Here.
Most importantly, if you have a book / author / teacher who has touched you and resonated with you please share with me below.
As I was reminded twice directly today and am reminded on the daily always;
“We are all walking Home together” and one important thing we can share with each other are the manuals we find and teachers we meet along the way.
#ManaPonoJourneys #Trust#TheManIWantToBe#fromtheheart#nontoxicmasculine#risingmen#growth#brotherhood#HerRisingMen #balance
#writersofinstagram #Reiki#TwinFlame#ACIM#TheSoulsJourney#360sweatlife#thesweatlife#thesweatlifeSF#YogaLife#WanderlustFest#WanderlustSanFrancisco#breatheitallin #essentialism
Mid-Month Check-In #fantasywipdec19⠀
Is December already half over? I still can’t believe we’re so close to the end of 2019! 😅⠀
Since setting my goals at the beginning of the month, I’ve actually changed course and decided to focus only on finishing my NaNoWriMo novel draft before going back to editing my other WIPs, including my short stories for The Lunar Dragon. So far, I’d say I’m about three quarters through the first draft of The Last Water Dragon, only a couple of chapters away from the climax! So exciting! Aside from that, I joined a handful of new group promos and swaps for my newsletter, and I’ve been reading The Cruel Prince (which I started a while ago but took a break from to finish Heir of Fire and Seraphina first). Hopefully I can meet my writing and reading goals by the end of the month/year!⠀
How are you faring in your December goals?⠀
Well fam, we have come to the end of the semester. I’m halfway done with coursework! Which is something to be excited about. I once ran a half marathon, and all the miles leading up to mile 7 felt so long. I wanted to walk a lot in the beginning. But after I passed 7, made it to 8, hit 9, I knew I would finish. PhD programs are difficult and rewarding; a challenge for sure. This semester was the most difficult yet because it felt like I would never get to mile 7, but here we are. Done. The final papers are in. My final grades for students are submitted. Now begins 29 days of something like freedom. (Though the flu hit our house on Friday...gotta end with a bang, right?) Looking forward to some winter ❄️ adventures, soon!
i’ve taught myself
the art of holding on
when i’ve wanted to give up
how to drink from an empty cup
because no one poured me
an ounce of anything i craved
i’ve far too long
sought for emotions through another
without creating them myself
and i’ve faced disappointment
for that exact reason
with suffocation filling my mind
almost every minute
i’ve removed the batteries
from this clock
to pause my mind
before i’m ready
to pause my thoughts
i’ve slept with a heavy heart
and loved with the same
but the one thing i hope
to know and learn
is to lean into thin air
without falling anywhere else
except into myself
A head cold is creeping in, but I’m trying to drown it in ginger tea and sleep. Writing and editing book 2 in #TheMousaiSeries still needs to happen, but ever so slowly today ✍️🤧.
Hope you have been able to fight the winter bug!
There isn’t any place of darkness
That you can’t get me on my feet
There isn’t any shadow cast on me
That’s too dark for me to see
Not a sin I could commit today,
Or any thorn that’s in my flesh,
Could prevent my Christ from advocating
And presenting me as best
A clean, warm robe of glowing white
Will be a garment that I wear
When I make the trip to see his face
From the journey here to there
I’ll serve him always, the best I can
He’s the what, who, where, and how
He’s the why, the past, the present, and..
The one who’s every knee shall bow #poetry#poetrycommunity#poetsofinstagram#writersofinstagram#writer#jesuslover#christianity
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Give Me A Greedy Love (Tanka: for when you want to write a Haiku, but are too much of a blabbermouth. Syllables: 5-7-5-7-7) 🙄 Hats off to a post this morning from @purgetraumapoet mentioning greedy love, which gave me thoughts to pen this quicky. As for the rest, you know the drill; words are below, or on next slide, or not needed at all...you decide 😊
All Consuming Love,
devouring, swallowed whole.
enraptured, yet held softly...
heart beats encompassing soul. ~
'FLY AWAY TO ME'🌸
Make me as a bird
So I can fly into
Your arms, and
Venture the love
That's within your
Heart, as I spread
My wings to the
Ever after of a