Sometime last year, I had decided I would no longer participate in Dry January. One dry month or so and I’d be back to enjoying wine or some delicious cocktail created by a celebrated mixologist (you know who you are 💕). I’d get back to spending long, sunny days with friends drinking rosé or making one of my delicious house cocktails for one of our Love House gatherings...and I would thoroughly enjoy the experience.
But amidst that enjoyment, was the inability to have “just one” or to be fully aware of how much I was actually drinking. I also began experiencing blackouts with just a few drinks. Never mind the mornings or days after, feeling depressed, agitated or just lethargic. The list of reasons to avoid alcohol began to grow longer. And I didn’t even drink much in 2018.
I began to inquire with myself on what instigated a weeknight thought like “I need a glass of wine”. I began to examine why I thought I needed anything, to be honest. I had to dive quite a bit deeper to understand the mechanism behind “needing” something that was certainly not a health benefit.
While I was in my first round of Reiki training back in 2017, our teacher spoke about how we leak energy and how substances supported this loss of energy. Perhaps it was this first training where I had decided to really slow it down. “Healers don’t need to leak their energy”, I thought.
I quit drinking January 1, 2019 and I don’t feel deprived, in the least. I don’t crave anything. I don’t need anything. And I still hold gatherings and make beautiful cocktails for my guests, as well as delicious mocktails for myself and anyone else who doesn’t need “another one”. I thank this woman, @holly , for her endless inspiration and thought provoking ideas about the subject, and for creating a space to discuss the “why” behind our desires.
This post is for the women I’m connected to who have also expressed the desire to quit. Maybe just moving away from “needing it” is the answer. Lucky you, Holly just published a book 🙌🏼
#stillsober #sobercurious #alcoholfree
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Shit, what a day!
Literally been doing things since I woke up. So much so that I feel bad for the pups that I was out all day. We’re not use to that life 😂
One of the things on my agenda was making an urgent apt with my surgeon. Remember the burn that’s healing, that annoying open wound.. the reason I’m not completely cleared for everything at the gym?!
Well, turns out the sucker is either really irritated or infected 🙃
My wound was deep stabbed with a long swab & testing will be done, so we shall see.
For now, probiotics, antibiotics & a special soap. Fun stuff!