I really freed myself when I learned that I don't owe anyone #perfection . It also helped me overcome #shyness knowing that I don't owe anyone anything. I was then free to be my often-awkward self without beating myself up and #overthinking things. For the first time, I was able to quickly let things go and move on with life.
As introverts, most of us tend to naturally be overthinkers. #freeyourself#recoveringperfectionist
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My name is Lori, and I'm a natural brunette. A natural brunette with thinning hair I've been working to hide for almost 28 years. It's a small thing, really. A small thing that has impacted 95% of my days since I started thinning above my forehead at 21.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Almost six months ago, I decided to experiment with going blond. And today, on my fourth attempt, I've found a color I genuinely love! (Thank you, Michelle, at Cameo Salon and Spa in Nampa, Idaho.) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Why did it take so long to leap? It's embarrassing... I was worried about what other people would think. I was already self-conscious and thought, "what if?" What if it looks terrible. What if it seems silly. What if people think ________ (fill in the blank.) Sheesh! One would think I'd know better at almost 50 years of age. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
What changed? I started meditating and reading more. I took time daily to be quiet and listen. I decided that it didn't matter what people think as long as I felt good about my choice. And my husband and daughter supported me 110%. (Thank you, @chuck.lang3 and @yourdoseofgrace )⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Life is short. Take a chance. Do something different. Take a leap of faith--even if it's small. My leap may seem like a little thing, and it is, AND it's easing the anxiety I've been struggling with for years. What a blessing!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
On a different note...⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
If you're a woman struggling with #thinninghair, I feel you, Sister. 💛 You're not alone. I know how it feels. I know what it's like to look at yourself from all angles, using tiny combs and hairspray to hide your scalp. I've done it for decades. It's hard. It sucks. And very few people understand. Feel free to reach out to me here and on Facebook. Lots of love!
While they show themselves less frequently than before my surgery, there are still days when my mind cannot overcome my body. On those days, I have to let go and be forgiving of my need to rest. I feel like I wasted far too many years "resting." I much prefer to be active and engaged in the world around me; whether it's run training, supporting a work team**, or keeping my home and family running smoothly. So days like today are mentally as well as physically tough. But next week, I'll be meeting with one of my doctors for a quick procedure to set in motion a path that (hopefully) will provide some much-needed relief. I just need to get through the week until then. Tomorrow should be a better day and I hope to make it to my first morning group run. Send some good juju my way, k? Thanks!
(In the pic is my constant companion, my support familiar, my furry son, my kitty ShadowCat on guard and showing me some love.)
**I have a job interview in 2 weeks with a wonderful local business that could be a perfect fit for me. Fingers crossed!!