Just had my 6th bone marrow biopsy! This one is very important for the 100 days post transplant. Hopefully we will have answers around Thursday. 🙏🏼🧡🎗
4 months ago
I'm free, I'm alive and my toxic bags are finally out!
Today February 13th is breast implant illness awareness day and I feel it is my duty to not only raise awareness but lead by example by sharing my story and personal experience with you guys.
On Friday February 8th 2019, I under went a 3 hour operation to remove my implants and the capsules that have been causing me discomfort and pain for the past 4 years. I have been ready for this procedure for a very long time and when the day finally came I was beyond excited to finally get them out.
For those of you that are on the fence between replacing your implants or getting implants for the first time please educate yourself before making the decision. There is over 65,000 women with common health issues due to their breast implants. I couldn't be happier with my decision of overcoming vanity for my personal wellbeing.
As a mom of two little girls it is my responsibility to teach them self love, respect and acceptance and what better way than to lead by example.
I wanna share something I wrote this few years ago. Some of you'll will hate it. Some will despise me for writing this. But i wanna tell you something, that's a picture of me, when I was in depression. What I wrote below is what I felt during that time.
DON'T BE SHY TO ASK: What's wrong?
Ever felt so broken inside, you thought; everything's over? Your tiny world is just falling apart and every time you try to fix things, it just keeps getting more and more messy. While you're tossing and turning at night, hoping it will soon be over. Here you are again, ready to fight another battle.
This what depression feels like. All of us go through it, in some way or the other, it's just that, some are just not able to fight it. All of a sudden you feel, that you're the cause of everything that's falling apart. You see yourself giving up. You want to quit. You want to fight. You're screwing up at everything. You look back and see everything you've built is being torn apart. The old you, stares you in the eye. The angry, stressed, anxious, hurt you is lurking in your shadows. It's calling you, with arms wide open. You're screaming inside, as you put that beautiful smile on the outside. You're trying hard to fight it. Fighting to not go back to the old you. Trying to let go of your past, Your spirit is dowsing out. Darkness suddenly looks upon you. You start to shut people out. You don't know which way to go. You don't remember when was the last time you laughed, without having so many thoughts on your mind. You get mad for the smallest reasons. But, it's okay. You're tired of being told; it's going to be okay. That things will fall into place. Tired of being told that it's okay to cry, you need to be more strong. Well, it's okay to fall apart sometimes, but you'll pick yourself back up, but when you do, you won't be the same anymore. Life's thrown you way up, telling you, it's beautiful up there, as you back down you see nothing but thorns waiting to rip me apart. But if you need someone, I'm always here to help you land on soft ground.