You’re looking at an ass. Someone who hasn’t changed much in twenty years. I buy stupid things. I say stupid things. I procrastinate. I go off by myself like there’s no one at home. I work and talk too much. I’m older than most people think I am and I’m not sure I will be any different than I am today, ten years from now. I’ll just be older and certainly more surly. I give dirty looks to people that love me and scream profanity at people from my car. All I can do is hope that the people that love me now, in spite of me being an ass, always will. Thanks to Billy Joe Shaver for the perpetual optimism of “Old Chunk of Coal.” Much like the song I find myself infinitely caught in the loop of wanting to be better than I am, and then the song starts over and I’m back to being an ass.