Nightmare, nightmare, make me scream, wrapped your thoughts around my neck, choking me, losing oxygen, gotta wake up, but I can't see. Heart starts beating faster than, the thoughts come in, how could I make this end. Little girl, little girl, I'm sorry I couldn't settle enough to go out and play, waved to you through the window every day, wanting you to stay, making you promises i couldn't keep, turning grey now, still trying to figure you out, meanings taken too long, wish the day gone, I won't sing along, the sound it kills me.#mentalmakeup#agoraphobia#depression#nightmares#dissociativeidentitydisorder#writingcommunity#writer#poetry#poet#wordsmith#empath#haunted#uplate#chronicillness#loner#spiritual#meditation#nosleep#mentalhealthblogger#suicidesurviver
Dreams. Someone said we see them in black and white. I...I... rarely remember my dreams. The one's in which I see you I call them as nightmares. .
But somehow each time you appear in them you seem to wear a bright colour. Pink. Yellow. Blue. And at first I wondered why. Then it occurred to me. You hated black and white was too pure for you. Guess what, black has always been my favourite colour. .
CLEANING OUT MY CLOSET: ✂ Me and good ole Ed ✂
When reminiscing about the past is all you can do in a miserable present life, even #childhoodfears can turn into fond #memories.
Believe it or not, this #goth dude above would scare the DAMN LIVING SHIT out of me when I was a kid until my mid teens.
#EdwardScissorhands was the protagonist of my WORST #nightmares and I got countless jumpscares and heart's skips just by reading/hearing his name or peeping at his silhouette (reassuringly, I found out in many YouTube comments that a good number of folks around my age in #1990 got pretty freaked out by him as well, so I wasn't one of a kind) .
Sad thing is, I was actually "driven" to be frightened of him, since the curious and always scary 8-years-old-me was deliberately, sadistically misled by a former member of my family who, when I asked why did the dude look like that, replied that Ed was "a kidnapped guy whose hands were severed and replaced by scissors" (yup...) - freely allowing me to conjecture that he could prey on anyone else's hands (MINE included) in a sort of retaliation.
Unfortunately, uncovering the truth about character and plot didn't help: some fears' imprinting is hard to erase.
The years passed and my reason, my appreciation for both #JohnnyDepp and #TimBurton and, alas, my getting existentially closer to Edward's discomfort made me eventually be at peace with my #nemesis.
But I still didn't watch the movie, although I know it from synopses and clips: the ancient #fear evolved into the awareness of a #tale too #sad to bear for my depressed soul.
This until I bumped into a magnificent #comic from #IDWPublishing: "Edward Scissorhands - New Adventures" (2014/2015), story by #KathLeth, drawings (a perfectly fitting Burton-esque style) by #DrewRausch - a 10-issues #sequel divided into 2 narrative arcs, tying some loose ends of the movie in a more cheerful way than its source material, yet keeping its sweet, melancholic and somehow satirical mood.
And, what I loved most, a true shard of hope in the dark fate of that gentle spirit.
A STRONGLY recommended reading indeed.
Above, a selection of my favorite #covers.
Due credits in the comments section.👇