“What if something happens to you while I’m asleep?”⁣ ⁣ Our son has found a solution to this question. He has stopped sleeping. He keeps himself awake as long as he can. He screams when his plans are challenged. He hits and stomps and will not leave my side when we are together.⁣ ⁣ I could look at this and see it as a behaviour issue. I could tighten up my discipline. I could yell. I could show zero tolerance. But this is him working out his feelings. This is his reaction to trauma.⁣ ⁣ This has been going on for 3 weeks. That’s when we were at the doctors for their flu shots. I had a sudden onset, hemiplegic migraine aura that left me with body weakness and an inability to speak. There were ambulances. There were terrifying ER waiting rooms. There was massive routine disruption. It is still echoing in their hearts.⁣ ⁣ And when things like this happen, the kids see it all. They breathe it in. And then, when we roll with it because we have to, they follow us. ⁣ ⁣ But they don’t have the answers that we do. They don’t have the words to link up to the feelings that rise to the surface. ⁣ ⁣ They only know that when they scream, and hit and stomp, some of that fear and anger and hurt falls away - even for a minute.⁣ ⁣ They only know that staying awake and keeping you in your field of vision means that you are still alive. That you are still ok.⁣ ⁣ And yes, I have cried a lot. I have felt guilty. I have felt so helpless as I see the hurt pouring out- thinking that my illness has remotely caused this in both my kids is so hard. And it’s even harder to handle their anger and the backlash of it all.⁣ ⁣ But instead of snapping back we breathe deeply. We listen with love. We teach firm boundaries with compassion and care. We acknowledge the anger, the frustration and the fear. We keep meditating and praying and saying mantras. And we hold those kids as long as they need to be held; we give them that 3rd slice of toast.⁣ ⁣ We caress their sleepy, furrowed brows and whisper “it’s going to be alright my love” until they can hear the lullaby of our heartbeats.⁣ ⁣ Until they know they can trust the night,⁣ and wake to see our smiles again.⁣ ⁣ ❤️❤️❤️ You got this mamas.

Looking at Christmas lights with some of my favourite people 🎄 . Avery loved the lights, but he was more interested in the cars driving by😂 . . . . #christmas #christmastree #christmaslights #christmas2019 #festive #family #familyphotography #mamasboy #mommysboy #mylove #baby #babyboy #babylove #babyphotography #motherhood #momlife #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodsimplified #motherhoodrising #motherhoodslens #motherhoodmoments #averykurtisgodin #motherhoodquotes #motherhoodthroughinstagram #motherhoodalive #cute #momlifeisthebestlife #motherhoodunderstood

Cheesin over her reindeer shirt🦌 @sweetsprouts

This poor guy is on sick day #3.👎🏼 . Anyone who knows him, knows he has one general volume: loud. So when he’s quiet and doesn’t want to move....something is definitely up.🤒

We love a good scavenger hunt! Thank you @hihomemadeblog for this free 🎄 printable!

SNOW!!! 😁 Oh the fun we had in the snowglobe last Sunday at the @stratfordcentre . Unfortunately daddy couldn't join us as he had to work but @animladenova88 did so we took turns taking pics of each other. 🙂 The snow machine wasn't working properly so I ended up just throwing lots of snow in the air. When we left I looked like a had a bad case of dandruff! 😂😂😂

I cannot believe Christmas is in Two Weeks! Am I the only one who hasn't done any Christmas shopping??? Ok so none is a bit of an exaggeration, I have managed to get some stocking stuffers for the boy's, and my Secret Santa gift, but that's it. I'm seriously lagging this year, and I usually have everything done by now; gifts bought, lists made for what Christmas dinner will be, and what treats I'm making. I still haven't gotten a stocking for Little Lady, the place we got ours has closed, so it's hard to find a match for her. I have an idea of a joint gift for the boy's, but other then that, nothing. We're headed to Fresno this weekend, so hopefully I can find something at the Disney store or one of the many other's at the mall there. * * * * * #momlife #motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodunfiltered #parenthood #parenting #honestparenthood #honestparenting #honestmotherhood #honestmom #honestlife #mombehindthecamera #momsofinstagram #momsagainstmomshaming #momof3 #familyof5 #christmas #christmas2019

A pair of cracking looking ladies 🖤 #mumlife #mumsofinstagram #motherhoodunplugged #parenthood #babiesofinstagram #babiesofig #igmum #ittakesavillage #styleinspo #bornindecember #bornin2018 #babygirl #baby #brightonbaby #brightonmum #newmum #11monthsold #blonde #blueeyes #fedisbest #parentsofinstagram #instamum #momentsinmotherhood #firsttimemum #family #community #honestlymothering #togetherinmamahood

Basically 🤣 . . . #sophistiratchet #relatable #wednesdaymood #motherhoodunplugged #motherhood #christmas Reposted from @humanimpactpr (@get_regrann) - 🤣 a little #WednesdayHumor. Who else can relate? Except for that last date. Our team has been fortunate enough to accomplish a lot this year! Hoping you did too! - #regrann

🎨 @common_wild | “When first meeting your baby, you may barely be able to keep your eyes open due to exhaustion, or you may still be in pain. Especially if you’ve had a difficult delivery, you may feel relief more than anything else—relief that he’s okay, that you’re okay, and that labor is finally over. Or you may be focused on what’s still happening in your body: delivering the placenta, stopping bleeding, or stitching up your C-section or episiotomy. • “Many women who don’t feel instant love for their baby may simply be taking time to grasp the massive shift in reality that’s just taken place. Labor is usually a slow, gradual process, but the actual birth (when the baby is being pushed out of the vaginal canal or removed during a C-section) may happen at what feels like lightning speed. And in that instant, the energy in the room changes. • “Suddenly, boom, you and everyone in the room, no matter how many births they’ve seen, have to grapple with the profound fact that something that began as DNA stardust is now in the world as a crying, suckling human being. • If you’re not able to focus on this first meeting, try not to feel upset with yourself, ashamed, or worried that you’re not going to be able to love your baby. Yes, this is one of the most important moments of your life. But you’re going to have a lifetime with your baby—you don’t need to fit all of your emotions into this single second.” • #matrescence #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodunfiltered #mom #moms #mother #mothers #momma #mommas #matrescencia #matreschka #matrescense #mommy #motherhood #realmotherhood #lifeasamama #mommystatus #motherhoodjourney #mommymode #motherhoodrising #thatmomlife #mymotherhood #motherhoodsessions

2 more weeks to go, but he could be here at any time! I got my #mommymakeover yesterday since I know I won’t have the time once little dude is here. I’ve been told to just go about my life per usual until labor begins, but I’m so paranoid It’s going to happen while I’m out and about. Where’s the craziest place you’ve gone into labor? I know there’s got to be some interesting stories out there 🙈

😴😴 . . . . . . #baby #babyofinstagram #babyboy #kids #lovelybaby #instababy #instababyboy #blondbaby #blueeyes #love #motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #beautifulbaby #maysonshaw #maysonrileyshaw #inspiration #pregnancy #motherlove #fatherlove #frenchboy #englishboy #walesboy

#ad Christmas came early for mama with this @sharkcleaning Shark iQ Robot Self-Empty vacuum 🙌🏻 I love that it does the cleaning for me so that I can focus on my many other tasks for the day. You can schedule when you want it to run everyday which is amazing! With kids and a dog (not to mention a husband), LOTS of dirt gets tracked in and out and the Shark Robot keeps our house so clean! This is a total game-changer for any family 👏🏻 #sponsoredbyShark #SharkCleansSmarter #SharkIQRobot . . . . . #instamom #literalmomgoals #joyfulmamas #motherhoodinspired #dailymotherhood #thisismotherhood #holdthemoments #bloggermom #honestmotherhood #motherhoodunplugged #mytinymoments #igmotherhood

Ｌｉｆｅ ｉｓ ａ ｍｉｒｒｏ r What you see on the outside, is a reflection Of what you feel on the inside.

Here’s 60 seconds of me and Thanos being cute, just because. 😍 #tinytitan #babythanos #marvelbaby P.S.- tell me we aren’t cute, I dare you 😤 . . . . . . . . #hautemama #hautemess #messyaf #motherhoodmoments #worldsokayestmom #marvel #marvelentertainment #thanos #thanossnap #motherhood #avengers #momlife #expectingmama #childsupport #kids #mumlife #mother #comegetyourson #momsofinstagram #parents #babyboy #motherhoodunplugged #momblogger #children #letthembelittle #familytime #bhfyp

#ad In our house, bath time is a chance to teach the kids things, like standing up for yourself, saying no, and self-care. Being mindful flows to respecting them and their personal space. So naturally, as they get older, it's time to teach them about washing their own hair. 🛁⁣ ⁣ It was kind of like a rite of passage to take them to @walmart and pick out their own big kid shampoo. Gus picked out JOHNSON’S® Clean & Fresh Kids' Hair Gift Pack, and Dell picked out JOHNSON’S® Shiny & Soft Kids' Hair Gift Pack. Both kits come with a matching conditioning spray which is perfect for freshening their hair up in-between washes. They also each come with matching brushes (yay for no more fighting over a single brush). 😆⁣ ⁣ These are both new @Johnsonsbaby gift sets, 𝗮𝘃𝗮𝗶𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗮𝘁 𝗪𝗮𝗹𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗲 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘁, and they are gentle enough for the kid's hair, but better at cleaning for busy, dirty little humans. These make great holiday gift sets as well or use the handy carrying case if you are traveling to visit family. ⁣ ⁣ Find these products at Walmart in the Baby Needs section of the Personal Care aisle. #johnsonskidshair #johnsonskids ⁣ ⁣ 𝗜'𝗱 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂 -- 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝘁𝗵𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗱𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲?💕

In Mommy's and Daddy's bed. That where i do my best naps ! . . . . . . #baby #babyofinstagram #babyboy #kids #lovelybaby #instababy #instababyboy #blondbaby #blueeyes #love #motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #beautifulbaby #maysonshaw #maysonrileyshaw #inspiration #pregnancy #motherlove #fatherlove #frenchboy #englishboy #walesboy #sleepingbaby #sleep #bed

It’s here!! It’s officially launch day for our Holiday collection ❄️ Keep an eye on our stories throughout the day for some close up looks at each piece and come shop with us at 8:30pm est! Here’s a little look at my two fave items in this collection.. does it get any better than a miniature, fur trimmed pixie bonnet and ribbed velvet knee socks?? 🙊

Eyelashes for dayyyzzz . . . #babyvin #darlingmovement #allaboutvin #candidphotogtapy #discoverunder5k #pregnancy #mumtobe #watchthemgrow #babyclothingstore #motherhoodunplugged #ukmumsquad #winterbaby #organicbabyclothes #organicbaby #mumswithcameras

Top Seller 💗 These Elsa Winter Boots are everything! ❄️☃️ . . . . . . . #igbabies #instagrambabies #babieswithstyle #fall #mommy #womeninbusiness #girlboss #shopping #motivated #handmade #whpdressup #Whpunusualportraits #love#livethelittlethings#calledtobecreative# #entrepreneur #wahm #mompreneur #momlife #mlmig #entrepeneur #bebold #minilicious #momentrepreneur #candidchildhood #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodthroughinstagram #motherhood