To my second born,
I’m sorry we don’t do this often, just be still, only you and me.
I’m sorry I can’t rock you until those little eyes close or hold you while you sleep.
I’m sorry you haven’t been to rhyme time, or music class or started swimming lessons yet.
I’m sorry you have no toys of your own or friends that aren’t running, climbing, yelling four year olds.
I’m sorry your baby book is bare and if I’m being honest, I’m not sure it will ever be full.
I’m sorry I only have a 4000 photos of you instead of the 28000 I took of your sister.
I’m sorry that our days always revolve around someone else and that you’re constantly woken up just as you’ve fallen asleep.
I’m sorry you’re dragged around from one thing to another, to dance class, to play dates, to school pick up.
I’m sorry that when you’re trying to show me that new thing you can do it’s always interrupted by your sister, she has a lot to say.
My baby boy, I feel guilt, every day that I can never give you my full attention the way I did for your sister.
But then I see your face when she walks into the room...
I see the way you watch and take in her every move.
And I see the way she makes you laugh, like no one else can, and I know, it’s okay, because you have something she never had, you my boy, have her.
2 days ago
Matching with Mommy 😁 I'm having way too much fun dressing my boy 💙💙 He looks so darn cute in everything 😍Where do you guys buy most of your baby clothes?
3 days ago
I could think of a bunch of different ways I'd rather be kicking off the week, but getting our sweet boy closer to where he needs to be is so important. I'm not sure anything can really prepare you for a cleft journey until you are actually going through it. And even then, every situation is different, or can change. Most people don't realize that clefts can come in many different forms. Some affect the lip area and some are just the inside palate, or both (which is our case).
What a lot of people don't realize is the palate portion of things, since it's not as obvious. C's previous surgeries were to correct his bilateral cleft lip, which in the grand scheme of things are mainly cosmetic. But his palate, you guys, I don't have a better way to describe it than saying that his mouth is totally open. Like, he doesn't really have the roof of his mouth, and his little hangy ball (uvula) in the back of his throat is split in two. We like to say part of his superpower is making things come out of his nose, because that sure happens when he eats. This surgery is more extensive and will affect things long-term, such as his speech and his nasal cavities.
I think no matter how many times they wheel your little one back to that OR a piece of your heart goes with them. We know he's in great hands and we serve an amazing God that has him in the palm of His hand, but it's never easy to see your little one in any type of discomfort. This has been such an amazing and supportive community for us and we appreciate you getting a glimpse into this journey with us. Your prayers are always appreciated as we navigate this next step in his journey #cleftstrong#cleftlip#cleftlipandpalate#1in700 #yourstrongerthanyouthink
1 day ago
14 dage som mor til to. 14 dage med en efterfødselskrop. Slatten, træt, øm og overvældet. Hvordan kommer vi igennem denne, på papiret, fuldstændige uoverkommelige tid efter en graviditet og fødsel, er mig et mysterium. 14 dage med søvnfattige nætter, blødende brystvorter (er jeg den eneste med sensitive brystvorter og spædbørn med dyson/vaccum-mund? Av for FANDEN, jeg vil næsten hellere føde) og den evigt nagende tvivl: “gør jeg det her rigtig, gør jeg det her godt nok. 14 dage med nye tigerstriber på maven og vigtigst: 14 dage hvor jeg har skulle lære at rumme kærlighed til to børn på én gang. Som en veninde med tvillinger sagde: “det er så vildt og kan næsten føles umuligt, samtidig med at det er helt naturligt” .
Where are your most favorite places to explore with little ones? [#ad]
Our adventures are made easier now with our new @radioflyerinc convertible stroller wagon! 😍
You now get the best of both world with this wagon: push or pull! My two little princesses love being toted around. 😅
1 day ago
J and I sat on the couch together last night, crying together and sharing our favorite stories and memories about Lay. In between tears, we also recounted the events of the last 4 weeks. It’s been less than ideal around here, that’s for sure: multiple doctor and ER trips for sick kids + cut off fingers on thanksgiving 🙈, ear infectionsx3, RSV, the flu, a broken oven, a coworker gone too soon, working overtime, extended family going through tough times + health issues, our beloved dog of 15 years diagnosed with cancer and gone 4 days later.... I’m not even sure that’s everything, but I think you get the jist of it.
Here’s the thing. While we wish NONE of these things would have been our reality this past month, they were and are our circumstances, and for whatever reason the big man has up there (hopefully it’s a good one 🤔), they were and are all a part of our life story. I’m just so incredibly thankful for this man being by my side and that we’ve had each other through it all- to give one another strength when one of us didn’t have it, to lean on and encourage each other when we felt hopeless, to simply lay in bed holding hands as a sign that we are always there for each other, to be a rock and a light when everything around us feels dark. We’ve cried more tears together these past 4 weeks than I think we have the entire time we’ve known each other, but I am clinging tight to the faith that God is just setting things in motion for us and our family to rise up and find that His grace will get us through even the hardest times. Last night we cried, but we also shared hope that the new year will be a new beginning, a new chapter, a new journey for our family. If you, too, are going through hard times, I pray you first of all find the strength you need in a spouse or friend or family member, and that you’ll also see that there is light on the other side: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11 / also, love you to the moon + back and definitely don’t know what I would do without you @jmanhanlon ❤️ / I am also so incredibly grateful for all of you.
1 day ago
“What if something happens to you while I’m asleep?”
Our son has found a solution to this question. He has stopped sleeping. He keeps himself awake as long as he can. He screams when his plans are challenged. He hits and stomps and will not leave my side when we are together.
I could look at this and see it as a behaviour issue. I could tighten up my discipline. I could yell. I could show zero tolerance. But this is him working out his feelings. This is his reaction to trauma.
This has been going on for 3 weeks. That’s when we were at the doctors for their flu shots. I had a sudden onset, hemiplegic migraine aura that left me with body weakness and an inability to speak. There were ambulances. There were terrifying ER waiting rooms. There was massive routine disruption. It is still echoing in their hearts.
And when things like this happen, the kids see it all. They breathe it in. And then, when we roll with it because we have to, they follow us.
But they don’t have the answers that we do. They don’t have the words to link up to the feelings that rise to the surface.
They only know that when they scream, and hit and stomp, some of that fear and anger and hurt falls away - even for a minute.
They only know that staying awake and keeping you in your field of vision means that you are still alive. That you are still ok.
And yes, I have cried a lot. I have felt guilty. I have felt so helpless as I see the hurt pouring out- thinking that my illness has remotely caused this in both my kids is so hard. And it’s even harder to handle their anger and the backlash of it all.
But instead of snapping back we breathe deeply. We listen with love. We teach firm boundaries with compassion and care. We acknowledge the anger, the frustration and the fear. We keep meditating and praying and saying mantras. And we hold those kids as long as they need to be held; we give them that 3rd slice of toast.
We caress their sleepy, furrowed brows and whisper “it’s going to be alright my love” until they can hear the lullaby of our heartbeats.
Until they know they can trust the night,
and wake to see our smiles again.
❤️❤️❤️ You got this mamas.
This poor guy is on sick day #3.👎🏼
Anyone who knows him, knows he has one general volume: loud. So when he’s quiet and doesn’t want to move....something is definitely up.🤒
1 day ago
We love a good scavenger hunt! Thank you @hihomemadeblog for this free 🎄 printable!
1 day ago
Oh the fun we had in the snowglobe last Sunday at the @stratfordcentre . Unfortunately daddy couldn't join us as he had to work but @animladenova88 did so we took turns taking pics of each other. 🙂
The snow machine wasn't working properly so I ended up just throwing lots of snow in the air. When we left I looked like a had a bad case of dandruff! 😂😂😂
🎨 @common_wild | “When first meeting your baby, you may barely be able to keep your eyes open due to exhaustion, or you may still be in pain. Especially if you’ve had a difficult delivery, you may feel relief more than anything else—relief that he’s okay, that you’re okay, and that labor is finally over. Or you may be focused on what’s still happening in your body: delivering the placenta, stopping bleeding, or stitching up your C-section or episiotomy.
“Many women who don’t feel instant love for their baby may simply be taking time to grasp the massive shift in reality that’s just taken place. Labor is usually a slow, gradual process, but the actual birth (when the baby is being pushed out of the vaginal canal or removed during a C-section) may happen at what feels like lightning speed. And in that instant, the energy in the room changes.
“Suddenly, boom, you and everyone in the room, no matter how many births they’ve seen, have to grapple with the profound fact that something that began as DNA stardust is now in the world as a crying, suckling human being. •
If you’re not able to focus on this first meeting, try not to feel upset with yourself, ashamed, or worried that you’re not going to be able to love your baby. Yes, this is one of the most important moments of your life. But you’re going to have a lifetime with your baby—you don’t need to fit all of your emotions into this single second.”
1 day ago
2 more weeks to go, but he could be here at any time! I got my #mommymakeover yesterday since I know I won’t have the time once little dude is here. I’ve been told to just go about my life per usual until labor begins, but I’m so paranoid It’s going to happen while I’m out and about. Where’s the craziest place you’ve gone into labor? I know there’s got to be some interesting stories out there 🙈
#ad In our house, bath time is a chance to teach the kids things, like standing up for yourself, saying no, and self-care. Being mindful flows to respecting them and their personal space. So naturally, as they get older, it's time to teach them about washing their own hair. 🛁
It was kind of like a rite of passage to take them to @walmart and pick out their own big kid shampoo. Gus picked out JOHNSON’S® Clean & Fresh Kids' Hair Gift Pack, and Dell picked out JOHNSON’S® Shiny & Soft Kids' Hair Gift Pack. Both kits come with a matching conditioning spray which is perfect for freshening their hair up in-between washes. They also each come with matching brushes (yay for no more fighting over a single brush). 😆
These are both new @Johnsonsbaby gift sets, 𝗮𝘃𝗮𝗶𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗮𝘁 𝗪𝗮𝗹𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗲 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘁, and they are gentle enough for the kid's hair, but better at cleaning for busy, dirty little humans. These make great holiday gift sets as well or use the handy carrying case if you are traveling to visit family.
Find these products at Walmart in the Baby Needs section of the Personal Care aisle. #johnsonskidshair#johnsonskids
𝗜'𝗱 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂 -- 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝘁𝗵𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗱𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲?💕
It’s here!! It’s officially launch day for our Holiday collection ❄️ Keep an eye on our stories throughout the day for some close up looks at each piece and come shop with us at 8:30pm est! Here’s a little look at my two fave items in this collection.. does it get any better than a miniature, fur trimmed pixie bonnet and ribbed velvet knee socks?? 🙊