Everyone has their weak spot that causes them to fall into low vibrations. For some it’s finances, career, friendships or family. For me, it’s a man (typical Virgo & woman 🙄lol)
Not just any man... but a man that lights fires n sets off triggers. A man who studied me, that comes along right when I’ve become settled and at peace with myself. He speaks to my spirit, sings to my soul, enters me thru intimate ritual and breaks down the walls I labored so hard to build just to waste my time & not be genuine.
I’d say that this type of man is evil & a predator. He is, but this ain’t about him. It’s about me & my willingness to be so vulnerable.
When it’s all said and done I’m left to pick up parts of me that got got trampled over. Left to sweep out big ass rocks I swept under the rug. Left with a dust pan of what use to be a beautiful, strong woman.
Everything we encounter is a reflection of a part of ourselves. So it occurred to me that when I’m at (what I think) is my highest peak a man is sent to show me I still have work to do. It’s the #wheeloffortune.
In tarot the wheel of fortune card symbolizes being stuck in a cycle.. no matter how much time has passed n what you have done eventually you will be in the same place as before, until you fix YOU.
The aftermath is usually #thetower or #death.... the fire that burns and the dusty ashes after it clears. As terrible as that sounds my goal is to get to those two points. I’m ready to burn!
Beyond that point who knows what lies ahead. The possibilities are endless... the entire deck is up for grabs. That uncertainty seems more hopeful than this current state. But until then it’s a cycle of meeting new faces with old intentions.
It’s in your darkest moments w/ tears flowing that you plant your seed of growth..... Water (him) + Earth (me)= GROWTH. And I’m realizing that growth doesn’t always mean growing together, but growing apart. And that ok.
Growth is life. No matter which direction. If your aren’t growing you’re dead. I’m not dead yet, I’m still typing lol so I guess that means the #marathoncontinues
And that’s a wrap for #e3. Till next year. Been working since last Friday working 12 hr days, walked a total of 67 miles in 7 days .... FUCK I’m tiered 1 more day to go
2 days ago
• • • • • •#Repost @cee_haz_young_hustle_
• • • • • •
🏁 VICTORY -"CHASING MY DEATH" FR FRFR "F**KIT"
-YOU CAN NEVER SEPARATE A SOUL FROM WHAT SAVED HIM FROM ("S") DEATH TO APPRECIATION OF LIFE- -ILL DIE BEFORE I GO BACK THERE - AT LEAST IT'LL BE FOR A CAUSE BIGGER THAN DEPRESSION- TMC🏁 "⚓ IN FLESH-TILL DEATH" #cee_haz_young_hustle_"
ThAt part #nipseyhussle#nipsey#allmoneyin#marathoncontinues#tmc #💙🏁🖤