Who was the last person who made you feel genuinely loved? Try to reach out to them today. Check on them. Make sure they are okay. Feel free to even tag them in the comments. Show love and appreciation for anyone who has shown up and been there for you lately ❤️ #MakeSureYourFriendsAreOkay
5 months ago
Make sure your friends are okay
Phone a friend.
Text them even.
After visiting several colleges, universities and community spaces, we are having our last event of the KehDo campaign tomorrow with the Youth Parliament at NIC, 4 PM to 6 PM.
So, if you've missed anything, join us tomorrow. Aao #KehDO#relievnow
21 hours ago
sometimes it takes 19 years to find the friends you’ve always wanted. never knew friendship could be so pure and fun. love y’all and honestly have no idea what’d i’d do without you. oh also the state fair was amazing. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ♡⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
22 hours ago
My soul is being slowly drained out of my body... I can't remember when was the last time I felt like myself.
I can't remember when was the last time I didn't need to wear a mask everytime I left my confort zone.
I can't remember how it feels like to have more than one happy day in a row in which I feel okay. I don't even say feeling happy because at this exact moment I think that's so much to ask from myself.
So, even though I want to be happy, right now I just want to be able to say "I'm fine" without lying.
I want to stop being out of energy every single second of the day. I want to stop this. I really want. But I also lack motivation and without motivation I'm just a body walking around trough life.
Tomorrow we visit PAF-KIET to spread the message of KehDo. So, get ready students, we are coming to your university on 17th of October, 2019 , with our psychologist to answer all your questions. Aao #kehdo#relivenow
2 days ago
Do you know anyone showing any of these signs? It is not too late! Reach out to them. Talking to one person can impact many more. Every life matters! Aao #kehdo#relivenow
My bathroom selfie and I are just here to say this. No matter how bleak things may seem, there is always room for hope if you let it. It doesn’t have to be one large hope that your life will be perfect if you’re not ready to dream that big get. Just a hope that you will be okay soon and things will get better. That you’ll smile and laugh again one day. Because you will. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So in the meantime celebrate the small things. If the best you could do today was get out of bed just long enough to eat, I’m proud of you. If it was simply existing, I’m proud of you. Every little bit counts. Stay hopeful friends!
4 days ago
오늘 또 누군가가 죽었다. 누군가의 삿대질로 악플로... 자신의 우울증으로. 나는 그 기사를 접하고 엉엉 울었다. 졸려서 눈도 못 뜨다가 한시간 몇시간 내내 울었다.
아빠가 귀가 멀었다. 어느 병원에 가도 원인을 찾을 수 없어 대학병원을 갔더니 의사가 왜 이비인후과에 오시냐고, 정신과로 가시라고 했다고 한다. 엄마는 당황해서 혹시나 하는 마음에 일단 검사도 시켜보고 진료도 받았는데, 진단명은 이상무 였고, 우울증에 의한 신체화라는 소견을 받았다. 그게 바로 어젯밤이었고, 나는 평생 내 삶을 우울에 밀어넣은 아빠를 미워했고, 죄책감으로 인해 우울증이 심해진 그 나약한 모습을 보면 더 원망했다. 당신은 우울할 자격이 없어. 근데 내 삶의 영원한 가해자가 죄책감으로 자신을 죽여가고 있다. 작년에는 원인도 모를 피부병에 걸렸고, 올해는 귀가 멀었다. 모두 의사의 소견은 우울증에 의한 신체화다.
오늘 온종일 우울했던 이유는 그녀의 죽음이 너무 크게 다가왔다기보다 ‘우울’의 죽음이 너무 크게 다가왔기 때문이었다. 우울함이 결국 나 자신을 지배하고 나도 모르는 새에 죽음으로 몰고 가는 그 우울함이, 얼마나 무서운지 알기 때문이다. 어느날 아빠가 갑자기 죽을지도 모른다는 생각이 스쳐지나갔다. 그녀의 모습이, 그 기사가, 자꾸 아빠에게로 나를 이끌었다.
그녀가 머리를 이쁘게 염색하고, 이쁜 옷을 입고, 사진 속에서 웃고 있다고 해서 그녀의 우울이 거짓인 것은 아니다. 우울은 우리 눈에 보이는 그 귀여운 크기에서, 나와 단둘이 있을 때는 집어삼킬 듯 커지다 못해, '나'라는 자아를 잃기도 한다. '나'가 자아를 되찾기 위해 발버둥 칠 힘이 남아있지 않으면, 우리는 그렇게 '나'라는 자아를 '우울'이라는 살인범에 의해 잃는 것이다.
내 우울이 다시 심해진 지 3개월, 나는 매일 밤 '우울'이 나보다도 커져서 나를 잡아먹고 내가 나를 죽일까 걱정한다. 사람이 많은 곳에 갈땐 갑자기 심장이 뛰는 걸 멈출까 쓸데없는 걱정을 하며, 미리 약을 한 알 더먹고, 오늘 하루도 집에 돌아오며 살아서 마무리해서 다행이라고 안도한다. 그런데 이젠 가해자까지 걱정해야한다. 아빠가 죽었으면 좋겟다고 수천번 생각했는데, 이젠 나약해져가는 꼬라지에 무슨 생각을 해야할지 모르겠다. 그가 살아있으면 언젠간 내가 죽을지도 모르는데, 그가 죽으면 그럼 내가 행복해지는걸까 하는 생각이 든다.
하늘에선 늘 자신이 제일 큰 존재이기를,
종현처럼 더이상 아프지말고 당신도 빛나는 별이 되기를.
다음 생에도 복숭아 같은 사람으로 태어나
아무에게도 상처받지말고 사랑받으며 살기를.
4 days ago
Wellbeing is important, both, physical as well as emotional!
Calling out all students at Habib University to join us tomorrow, 15th October, 2019 from 1 PM to 4 PM, for an interactive session with activities and discussion regarding mental health. Come and share your thoughts and feelings. Aao #kehdo#relivenow
4 days ago
“Some people have it worse”, “Depression is not real”, “Don't be crazy.” Many people suffer in silence because very frequently they get to hear such responses.
BUT, there is help available! Reach out to a mental health professional, become your own champion start your journey towards recovery. Aao #kehdo#relivenow
5 days ago
I haven’t been this happy in a very long time. Us people pleasers don’t let others often know that we’re hurting or need help and I’m so so so grateful to have the most amazing people around me, who check in and ask about my wellbeing in times like this. I want to encourage all of you to ask your friends if they’re going through some tough shit because most likely they won’t let you know by themselves. It could mean the world to them, if you ask. Even though the other person is doing okay at that time, they’ll remeber you care.
Lets be here for each other.
Recently, when I shared my heart and told my friends about my sorrows, they gave me the best pieces of advice. I asked for it and I got such wisdom gems that I probably wouldn’t mind if I wasn’t the one asking. I was stunned by how wise people are around me. With experiences they gladly shared because they knew I could learn from it and not have to go through the pain they did. Well let’s be real, I needed to feel the pain I did in order to learn from it but I didn’t have to figure it all out by myself, which is a priceless privilege. Thank you to everyone who are here for their friends like mine are for me🙏🏼♥️. I’m blessed and forever grateful.
If you made it here, please go and make sure your closest friends/family are okay. Be brave enough to care. Its worth it✨