You all know, or heck maybe you don’t, but I love honesty. I am thankful for this social avenue to express my truth. Some may not agree, some may feel comfort in my vulnerability and a sense of not feeling alone.
So here goes the sharing for today.
There are times, not often, I wonder if I am really cut out to be a Mom. Sometimes I long for quiet, peace in the mountains, being on my own program. Independence.
When the kids are pills, fighting, whining, and just purely exhausting. When I lack patience, raise my voice, or have to discipline too often. When I feel like all I say is No, Please don’t do that, that does not go in your mouth, can you use your words!
Now, a little background. My hubby works a lot. By that I mean he loves to work. Because that means we get to play. So I solo parent often. I long for adult conversation at times.
This is where I wonder, am I a good mom? Was I made to be a mom?
Bottom line, it’s okay to feel burnt out, it’s okay to get on the complain train here and there. It’s okay to feel exhausted and admit it. You don’t have to be the perfect mom and love every second of all of it. You can be authentic and vulnerable and have feelings.
I have moments like these pictured above. Where I couldn’t imagine celebrating my birthday with out these two. They are both so incredibly beautiful. It makes my eyes well up just thinking about how gorgeous they are from the inside out. They always need me, they continuously tell me they love me, and they are super funny. They are interested in all the things that bring me joy, such as fishing. They literally want to try most anything. My daughters are my biggest and best adventure. I get to live that adventure daily.
So when I have the low moments and question my worth as their mom. I stop, tell myself I am an incredible mother, flaws and all.
Why am I sharing this? Well if you are questioning your worth, stop. Say it out loud right now, I AM AN EXCEPTIONAL MOM!
Happy Monday to all the Mamas(fur mamas too)!!
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Summer 2019 Roadtrip day 1.
Horseback riding. Bucket list item, checked for @bruhkelynne
Roller coasters. (Brookelynne's phone was a casualty on one).
Lilah's birthday dinner at Moosejaw Pizza.
The tiniest campfire and s'mores at our little cabin.
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Chores are WAY better when everyone pitches in!
Many hands lightens the load
I don’t think I stress enough how great it is that thieves household cleaner and young living products allow for the kids to get in and pull their weight and I don’t have to worry about harsh chemicals or toxins.
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Throwback to boat day... #takemeback#lakesonoma#boatlife#livingourbestlife#myfavorites