For 5 years, I went through two pregnancies, two births and two postpartums. My first pregnancy, birth and postpartum were smooth. I "bounced back" quiet fast and oddly I lost more weight than my pre-pregnancy weight (looking back, it wasn't a healthy weight loss)
My second pregnancy was TEN times harder, fortunately a smooth birth but postpartum was FIFTY times worse than my first. I had severe depression, anxiety, fatigue, indigestion, nutrient deficiency and adrenal issues
On top of that, we had several stressful events last year including a time where four of us had to move out of our house for two months, dealing with our daughter's eczema, making lifestyle/diet changes, back injury and transitioning back to work. I lived like a zombie for couple of years. There were so many changes I had to make to heal myself, which wasn't an easy process either. I can say that it's only early this year when I started to have energy and felt more like myself. I still have lots to work on and to improve.. Sure, I am still heavier than my previous weight but I overcame all those tough times. My husband and I are closer than ever. My kids are growing well. I am better at taking care of myself than I used to, because I didn't used to take care of myself. I didn't know I had to and I didn't know HOW to
It's a daily struggle to see myself not having the body I used to, not being able to fit into my clothes, hair loss and multiple dark spots. We as moms put enough pressure on ourselves... NO ONE needs to remind us how we don't look certain way. It's not like we don't WANT to get back in shape. But we all have our own situations. Each body is different. It's not a competition. There is no RULE. We are doing our damn best #momtruth#momlife#momlifebelike#selflove#healthfirst#motherhoodunplugged#motherhoodunfiltered#motherhoodintheraw#journeyofmotherhood#ignoretheignorant#bodypositivity#itsajourneynotarace#momstruggles#toddlermom
2 weeks ago
🤷♀️Lil late but glad we still did it!! Here’s just a few shots from Luqman 1st shoot. I’m beyond thankful to be your mother. I love you so much my son you are everything to me. 💙❤️ Also a huge thank you to @melaneysotelophotography for catching all these beautiful moments📸
“Working with Bose was the best! She loved the concept straight away and was more excited than I was. This look describes her perfectly... she is very busy but knows how to prioritize her family. I love how she is all business from head to toe until you pree her trainers because after a long day in the office this mama is running home to her baby!” .
Styled by @k_essel_styles
Hair by: @moshhairlondon
Photography by @livemoments_by_obaze
3 months ago
May! You’re here! The month where you honor, us, the hero’s that don’t wear capes! MAMAS! Honored to be a part of this @indoralmagazine feature! #motherhood
11 months ago
The final week of summer break with this crew. 😭❤️ I’m super sad to see it end, because I love our slower and more fun summer pace, but I also think everyone is ready for the next season and a routine to begin. Plus I will get an entire 7.5 hours to myself during the week and I’m ecstatic! 😆
I am beyond excited to be participating in our self portrait loop #thisisusthursdays with some amazing photographers. Follow the tag each Thursday to see how we take time away from all our every day roles and focus on ourselves with a creative emphasis.
Next up: @capturedmomentsbyshannon
You know you've finished the loop when you make it back to me!
#portrait_perfection #b1withmoms#savorlifeintensely#_a_beautiful_you#journeyofmotherhood#gf_faces#ourcandidlife#portraitphotography#portraitsmag#discoverportrait#postmoreportraits#cameramama #storytellingmama
Perseverance > Perfection
I cannot even begin to describe to you how much this painting means to me. My son... the one who never takes more than 2 minutes to do an art project... sat down and painted this for an hour... Y'all an HOUR!
He asked me to paint along with him so I could show him some basic techniques. I tried to keep it simple so that he could follow along, and I had him choose all the colors he saw... I just adore that smear of pink in the sky because that's what he saw 😍
At one point he looked at my painting and said, 'Your's is better than mine.' But I assured him that the effort he was putting into his painting was worth FAR more than perfection... He was persevering! He was trying something new and enjoying the process along the way.
He told me he wants to hang both our paintings in his room. Day... Made!
I know not all experienced will be like this, but like @mariah___dawn said in the @commonplacequarterly... This is my 'broom tree.' It's a moment of rest and sustaining grace during this homeschool year. It's a moment I'll treasure.
Please share one of your 'broom tree' moments with me... Something that you cling to and celebrate as your press on. ❤️
Happy birthday anakku y ke 3, mama syukur sgt dpt awk. Sbb mama dpt blaja menjadi seorang ibu. Mama ngan ayah doakan ammar sentiasa sihat, membesar menjadi anak y soleh, sentiasa dgr kata org tua, hormat org tua. Mama sayang ammar.
2 days ago
My little guy has been battling his first ear infection; something not life-threatening but definitely unpleasant to witness. I am in no way comparing this to a life threatening illness, just sharing my current situation.
For one, it's devastating to watch my usually happy, energetic child turn into what can only be described as a zombie baby. He’s tired and somewhat lethargic, but doesn’t want to sleep.
Also, how does a child produce so much snot? No really, where does all that snot come from? There's no way that tiny body can produce that much mucus, but somehow it happens and it gets everywhere.
Any mama’s out there that can relate?
My beautiful gorgeous princess ballerina baby 💕🌹🌼 I have started the long process of weaning her off the boob. A while ago I had brought feeds down to just morning, noon and night, and I was happy with that at the time, but now I feel it's time to stop altogether.
From when I was pregnant with Nom, I've had a really bad feeding aversion when feeding Free. Sometimes it make me want to rip my hair out, other times it isn't too bad, but it's never gone away. Last week when giving her a morning feed (while clenching my fists because I honestly felt like punching the wall) I decided that I was done. Breastfeeding her hasn't been enjoyable for a long long time (anyone who says mothers only breastfeed past 1 year old for their own happiness can shove it), and it has gotten to the point of being far too mentally draining to want to continue.
It's going to be a slow process but I feel so much better now that I can see the end of it. I feel mean saying that, but she would still feed multiple times a day if I didn't have a limit on it, and the thought of that is too much.
Nomad, my mum and I are going away for 4 days to a wedding next month and Free and Caleb will have their own little weekend together. The plan is for her last feed to be just before we leave. Kinda looking forward to it, kinda anxious about it. I've been feeding her every day since the day she was born. It'll be a big change for the both of us, but I'm so proud of the fact that we've lasted over 2 and a half years.
Anyway that's my super long ramble about it. Wish us luck 🤞 #littlehoneydiaries
Aku punya 1 impian ni. Bila dah ada anak, aku nak jadi mommy yang FUN & ENERGETIC. Bila aku merajuk tak bercakap, tak senang bontot semua dalam rumah. Bila aku keluar semua tertunggu-tunggu bila mommy nak balik 😎
Being a working from home mom, for sure almost 24/7 masa ko habiskan dekat rumah je. Bayangkan kalau rumah tu hambar, semua terlalu serius, muka pulak garang macam hantu kak limah 🧟♀️Taknak please!
In reality, kadang susah & stressful. Kadang crazy and exhausting. Aku failed many times 😢
Tapi aku percaya, every hard minute, frustrating situation and overwhelming experience yang kena go through ni, sure WORTH IT with no regret! 🔥
To my dear daughter,
You were created to grow. Not just physically, but emotionally too. Can I tell you how beautiful it's though?
How it stretches you and shapes you into the incredible person you were created to be? I pray you won't be afraid of it. That you learn to embrace it. To trust it. To seek it.
Growth is wrapped in so many of life's situations. As much as I pray that these situations are easy for you, and I hope you'll always be reminded that it's there in the difficult too. To show you LIFE. To show you LOVE. To show you how much you are CAPABLE OF. And To make you STRONG enough to handle anything that's thrown at you.🌿🌱 #momslife#journeyofmotherhood#