I am coming out of a fog. I had lost my way there for a bit. A little depression crept in and I was fully aware it was there. Which is progress.
But it still took ahold. Not as strongly as it once might have. I still kept up with my routines & doing what I need to do daily. But it was still looming over. It started happening in January. I watched it fully aware. But that fog...that cloud of insecurity and blahness for life is finally fading. Only after going back and doing some more step work...some more inventory work and seeing where I've played my part. Rest in knowing I am not perfect or proud and make mistakes. But it doesnt make me a bad person!
I woke up after a good night sleep. Which has been elusive for a few weeks..I woke up with no looming guilt. I put pen to paper and got it out and off my heart and while I have to finish that work out loud and then take action....I feel ok. As if I am shedding behavoirs, patterns, people, things that dont help me see or do my best in my life. And thats ok!! Shedding lets you breath better. See better. Feel better. So you can do your work fully.
I feel whole again. Still there is growth to be done...when I stop growing then I am dead.
But I realize I am ok. I am ok.
Credit to @herstickyhope : Get unstuck! Take inventory and eliminate what doesn’t help you evolve, externally or internally!
Break up with the excuses, bitterness, regret, feeling sorry for yourself, anything and everything that is iffy, or anything that maybe holding you back!
If you need help with this process, start journaling your thoughts, identify the root of your thoughts, and address them!
2 months ago
On Day 2 of a 10-day meditation retreat, silent and hungry, achey-knee'd and wild-minded, wondering what the hell I'd gotten myself into, I noticed a previous student had scribbled a note on the wall above my bed: ":) Take it easy. Be happy now!"
Ooooohh, right!! That's what all this hard ass work is for. So we can understand a little more, and suffer a little less (maybe even a lot less!).
This stranger's words continue to remind me: Keep doing the work (the meditation, the yoga, the therapy, the writing, the vegetables - however you dig deeper) diligently, patiently and persistently. But remember why you're working in the first place! Be happy now :)
(And thank you, Vipassana)
The Dye Project went fabulously well. A tight group of eight. Each person went crazy with exploring techniques. What made us the most happy as organisers is that they were happy with their creations and excited to do more! Super happy workshop!
Take a moment to look at this VERY closely...
😆It’s funny, but I share it for one reason. Can we all stop the mom shaming? You know, moms judging other moms🙅🏻♀️. Seriously?! How about instead of using our energy and thoughts to negatively make up beliefs of mothers in our head, we take that same time and spend it praising and lifting each other up. I could go on about this, but the truth is, I already worked on nearly 15 positive things in the last hour and don’t care enough to make this longer. Just be nice and considerate to each other, moms. It takes a village, not a jury.
#🛑 #donthate #💞 #appreciate#worryaboutyourself#stopjudging#peace#behappy#happinessiswork#beyou#okImDone#rebuildmamasvillage